Instant Sean

My favorite song right now...

Mark Knopfler, who has a butterfly named after him.

Unfortunately Gary doesn't have any Dire Straits other than Money for Nothing.  Or I'd belt out Brothers in Arms or Heavy Fuel.

Right now I'm looking forward to a lot of things: Visiting Mom, Okie-Vegas and then putting the order in to have the tile put in the living room and hallway. 

Yup, I'm finally going to get it done. I called the Tile guy today and the only thing I have to move and empty is the big entertainment center. UGH.  That's going to be a bitch. He would do it, but it would take him more time to get the cd's out etc and it also gives me a chance to fix some wiring issues. It will give me a chance also to throw away/give away some duplicate cd's and I'm really excited.  With the money that grandma gave me the world's worst carpet EVAH will finally be replaced. 

Target Goal : End of July/ Beginning of August.

I am really feeling good lately and though I've been working out more, I've been sleeping less. 5-6 hours daily and yet I am ready to go in the morning ( I will admit that my alarm should get a purple heart).  We increased my weight on my leg exercises (since they are my strongest part of my body) and started to slowly increase the reps.on my arm exercises.

Yesterday the trainer had me instead of doing my usual 7 mile bike ride changed me over for this week to the stairmaster.  I thought before that "its just stairs". WRONG, what a fool I have been.  Some of these exercises and the speed that I had to do them in drove me crazy.  I finished 60 flights and only covered a mile. But I was sweating more than I ever had doing the bike.  Yup, going to have to do them again on Thursday.

I'm only disappointed that my friends Jordan and Tripjax wont be able to join in for the fun.  BUT we are going to be joined by the Box-o-Whine himself Buddy Dank.  SO it will be a fun time to be shared by all.

But a quick side note for tonight:  Karma is a bitch and you shouldn't throw stones if you live in a glass house.  You shouldn't make fun of a man's work, especially if you are unemployed.  You shouldn't try and tell people how to raise their kids if your kids are screwed up. You shouldn't give people relationship advice if you've never had a successful relationship and most importantly, you should try to tell the truth before it bites you in the ass.

I went and left a surprise for the financial planner today.  Hopefully I will stay in her good graces until I find a way to give her the answer that she wants or to just become a client. I really doubt the second one though.

The goal this weekend is to find 30 min each day to do a quick work out.  If I can do that plus everything else I have to get done, then I will consider it a success.

A special note to Surflexus as he finished 5th I think in the Mookie and starts his trip to Oklahoma...  Safe driving my friend, and keep a chair next to you open! Vaya con Dios my Amigo.

That's it for me, Love, Luck and Lollipops. See ya!

 

Yup, just had, within TEN minutes, two people ask me to borrow $1000 and $500.

Or my favorite line, "If you don't have the money I can do a payday loan with you cosigning it".

NO, HELL NO, GO TO HELL NO!

I am not an ATM! Beg someone else.

"Neither a borrower nor a lender be;

For loan oft loses both itself and friend,

And borrowing dulls the edge of husbandry." - Hamlet

Sorry folks, except for family I just can't do it.

Over:Under time of Iam23Skidoo's head hitting the couch on Friday Night                  - 2 A.M.

Times that Joanda saying the word EH                                                                   - 12

Times that Kat will THWACK Tragedy                                                                    - 7

Times that Kat will THWACK Tragedy                                                                    - 21
(Line updated due to Iam23skidoo's and Bam Bam's Influence) (I am still taking the under)

Number of times Kat says ABOOT                                                                        - 7

Odds that Riggstad will make an appearance                                      1 in 10000000000000

Boxes of wine drank by Buddy Dank                                                                      - 2

More later.

Let's talk about The Poker Year in Review.

I started this year with a very small amount and doubled my bankroll so far this year.  

Earlier this year my friends and I made my predictions for this year...

Poker Blogger Goals

Buddy - Lose 15 Pounds , Bang any chick

Miami Don - Bang more blogger chicks

Sean - Lose 15 pounds, Build my bankroll

Chad - Improve Photoshop skills

So far I am 2 for 2.  I can't say how the others are doing.

Now I am working on a new second half of the year plan:

Lose the last 10 pounds, build my bankroll again another 50%

We'll check back in at the end of the year

I hadn't said a word the entire time and doubled up a shorty when I had a small pair and the medium stack goes ballistic.

He had been intimidating people and I didn't care for his style...

So I told him so...

Well tonight Riggstad and I sat down with the fish at an Omadraw table on Bodog.

Now I would never tell anyone to Tap the Glass. BUT by god, if you aren't making money at Bodog you are an inferior player.

There, I said it.

Yes, you will be out drawn.

Yes, they will chase.

But I was up 44BB's tonight with proper Omaha play on Bodog.

Bet your hand. Yup, I know you should try to skim in and trap with that big AAKK monster, but these guys wont fold.  NEVER. Unless you bet it preflop and then bet it again postflop.

Yes, I know this is FARRRRR from proper omaha play.

For this I would need the Omadraw experts like Bayne to stop by for lessons.

But at this 6max table (which I am getting to LOVE more and MORE each day.  I see the same mistakes.

Players raising with AFC, yup, let's try that position raise with Ac8h4dJs.  It don't matter when the flop comes 259 rainbow. I'll try and check fold my monster.  I played 13% of my hands, which is MAJORLY tight in 6 max.  But I got away from hands when I knew when I was beat and bet my hands , especially my turned DQB!

It's not that I am anywhere near the expert that others are, but with simple ABC play, you should be minting money on Bodog, with the only caveat being to examine the table for the proper shark/fish scale.  If there are 3 fish in the pond, sit near that glass.  But if there is only 1 or none, tap that glass and go away.

You can do well, and I'd love to see a proper blogger omaha play pattern.


BTW Fuel I played 55 3 times thinking that 55 is GOLD.  No such luck.

But I trusted in it!

And for my mid year review poker / etc ...

That comes tomorrow.

As for those of you who have asked me to make my opinions known on all blogger tragedy's now and in the future I have to say the following...

And I have way too much to do to play at all.

But I do have a surprise for my mom...

I've decided to visit her and dad sometime in the next two weeks.

YES I'M STILL COMING TO OKIE!

But Dad needs help painting my brother's house and Mom could use me a pick me up.

Right now as I look at the counter with 12 days and mere hours from Okie...  and it makes my heart ache that I can go for a weekend to see friends yet I am so far away from the kiddos.

But I got a late call from my ex-wife Angela last night.  I am happy that both of the kids are enjoying the summer and enjoying YMCA summer camp.  It's good to know that Ryan has a new Best Friend that can throw a dodgeball "REAL HARD" and that he has a 'girl' that he likes.  Shelby is into High School Musical and the concept that she finds (Some character) "Dreamy" sick to my stomach.  Why can't the kids just stay young forever...

So we can feel young forever.

Last night I went out to talk with some friends who were trying to throw drama grenades at me, just to see what I would do?  Well I took my handy drama racket and sent it back at them. 

For the Record:

Asking me relationship questions is pointless.  I screwed up the one marriage I had and I've been unable to find anyone else. 

I am funny ha ha, not funny ut oh or funny what the?

I have dreams and hopes that I intent to accomplish.  I just need the patience to see them through.

I have some amazing friends who laugh in the face of change...

Like Doc Chako who has left the Army and now is facing life totally different than he ever has.

Alcanthang, which gave up his donkey job to shill for Full Tilt and Live Poker Radio

Falstaff who is giving up the theatre to follow a new path

Then I have friends who have had their lives troubled recently...

TripJax and ChickJax who's Grandparents (Hers) was in a bad motorcycle accident but lived.  I wish I had words to tell you my feelings but my prayers are ongoing

Bayne's Wife has a seizure and surprised all the doctor's by waking up and continuing to surprise them every day.

Pushmonkey72 whose medical problems continue.  I hope that he finds the answers to his questions.

Recently I've been working out and it says something when some of the "muscle men" ask me "What's up Sean, good set!"  I'm just trying to lose weight guys.  It felt good to be part of the crew!

 

Hope you all have a great day and weekend.

 

 

 

(We are in recess for 10 min)..those of you who need to go put casinos in your children bedrooms, are now free to go do that"  also "hijacking the financial payment system of this country ... at a time when they are under tremendous stress doesn't make sense".

PRICELESS.

Not sure who looked more stupid...

Neugebauer or Bachus.

Rep. Peter King's - R NY is the smart one... under King's amendment, such a definition would not go into effect until the "end of the period consisting of 60 calendar days of continuous session of Congress".

60 Days straight?  IMPOSSIBLE. Ahh Politicians. How could they play golf? Ignore the citizens in their district, take junkets? 

How about bringing back Prohibition?  Budweiser and Miller would LOVE THAT!

Lets talk about what this is really about.

Taxes...

The government wants their cut and it will happen soon enough.  they just want a cut so they can build a bridge to nowhere or another pork barrel project.

Poker companies, give the government their cut and they will leave you alone.

No doubt about it!

http://struggles-with-donkeys.blogspot.com/2008/06/eternity.html

My friend Bayne is going through one of the toughest times ever.

They don't need flowers right now as she is in ICU but I'm sure he needs all the prayers you can deliver.

Please send your prayers up in Bayne and his family.

They would appreciate it!

ty

sd

Another Iraq Visitor...

Please go by and give your best wishes to Special K.  He is over working on databases and secretly hunting down insurgents on his trusty transportation.  But beware of sealage.

The Double Deuce...

The Air Conditioner is out in my studio.  It's hotter than hell outside BUT at least it is colder than the artic in my office.  So I'm working on trying to funnel cold air from my office to the studio. Ok... can't be done, but it was fun to do. SO I give the Double Deuce to those who deserve it who can't get it fixed.

Okie Vegas...

There is nothing hotter, not even Wafflecerin, that can compare to the heat that will be Okie Vegas.  There will be jet ski action, Skidoo falling asleep once again in the recliner and the dragging of the occasional pot.  Because of work commitments this will be my ONLY foray into the Poker Blogosphere this year unless "circumstances" with a project changes my situation.

Project V ...

is currently on hold on advice from my financial advisor.  After talking to her about the opportunities that I have she would like me to try and finish working on Project X (The Castle) and Project Y (Which is the worst kept secret in the blogosphere :-) )

No Hail...

Last night there was a bunch of good rain and I am sure I bored the snot out of my friends I was talking to on Teamspeak because I had to cut on the radio to talk about severe weather. But at least Kat said to me that she was sure glad that she felt safe because I was cover weather in Lubbock and she wasn't having the weather.

Workout...

I tweaked a muscle when I worked out last Thursday and I let it heal, but today I will be back at the gym getting ready to find a way to elminate 14.5 pounds that have been holding on for their life.  I am excited because since my waist has gone down at least from a 42 to a 38 and probably smaller.  However I am NOT looking at the Tale of the Tape until I get rid of these damn pounds.

KORS!

I won a token last night that I intend to use on the Monthly Championship qualifier for:

Congratulations to Poker Enthusiast and the entire Brickinthenutz team for creating a series that I am beyond excited at.  You need to join in the daily token tourneys... I entered three now to watch them ALL get voided. Don't let the RD's (Razz Donks) down.  Hell, maybe we can get Sirfwalgman to come out of Razz Retirement.

The Kids... 

This fourth of July week will be the hardest for me than ever since this will be the first fourth I won't be with the kids.  It will be very bittersweet.  I can see the future and being closer to them, but each day passes and I wonder if it was really meant to be.  Hopefully Shelby and Ryan can miss one more holiday with out their Daddoo.

Firefox 3...

It's official, I love Firefox 3.  With the spell checkers INBEDDED in the browser, I have officially chunked IE.  IE7 blows almost as much as Vista does, but nothing can suck that much.  But this is from a man who was still running Windows 2000 instead of XP because I thought XP was a better paper weight than an OS.  I'm still getting used to Vista's grumpiness, like disappearing hardware, finding my cable modem and then realizing , um your cable modem doesn't work.  Then it works again.  But enough about Vistas suckiness and back to Firefox 3.  I originally downloaded it to compare the way the way my personal and work webpages load up.  The more I played with it the more I liked it.  It's official... FIREFOX3 rules (This is NOT a paid segment)

Last nights rain...

I turned off the AC last night and opened up the windows.  Most times I am too busy to just listen to it rain.  But as soon as it turned from being severe, it was amazing to hear the individual drops hit the puddles of water.

I woke up listening to birds, crickets and I could feel the sunshine warm me and kick my heart in gear.

 

Time to go kick some ass! Have a GREAT DAY!

take a personality test so I could be told what type of person I was.

Was it much of a shock to you?

They are leaving one by one, people I've grown up with, respected and loved. I thought they would never go.

 

But another one left into the Big Guy's master plan today.

 

 

 

 

(NOTE TO SHELBY... don't click continue.  There are BAD WORDS on this page) Luv ya, Daddoo

Now if the damn thing will ever happen.

I am one with the patience.

(Breathe in)

[Thinking to himself : You must be at peace with the paper. It will come, you will sign it.]

Zen

My friend Kajagugu sent the following note.  I asked him for his permission to reproduce it for this is why I write.

 

"Sean, every time I read about your kids I want to reach out and give you a great big hug. I cannot imagine how this feels. During some rough patches with my wife I got close to thinking about how I would live my life without my kid. And there is probably no way I can do it. You are an inspiration, my friend and I wish you the best. I have never met you personally but I have a place in my heart for you always."

 

Thanks for your kind words...

You understand the joy of being... a dad.

And that's why I write.

Love, Luck and Lollipops my friend.

Sean

help others.

 

http://freerice.com/index.php

 

 

Love is love...

Hate is hate...

and business is strictly business.

As Zeppelin says...

It's nobody's fault but mine.

I wish people who just read this could understand how much fun I get from shedding the monkey that was on my back playing poker.

Sometimes you have to fire three bullets knowing that the call monkey will call.  Sometimes you have to leave the bullets in the chamber knowing that you will lose.  Until Wednesday I didn't know the difference.  I think my poker play has grown for the way that I have seen other players, fire bets into pots that they have no possible chance of winning in an attempt to push people off them.  I used to be so passive it was scary.  I used to be so predictable I had Waffles IMing me "Bluff, half bluff. You got the nuts."  Hell if Waffles can figure me out, what chance do I have of winning.  So I mixed it up.  I was strong passive weak aggressive.  And it paid off.

With the exceptions of family and few people that I have let REAL close into my life, you only know what I write on here.  You only hear my side.  Yes, you don't hear my ex-wife Angela's side of the story. I admit that.  But my personal webblog is not for her thoughts or for equal time.

It's for me.

I've dealt with the loss of my closest mentor, my grandfather, my sister due to cancer and my brother due to a horrible accident.

And in writing I've found peace.

 

Yes, I have another site. I've found privacy where I can call people out, rant like waffles, and no one is the wiser.

 

My heart hurts, not because of the countless married women who throw themselves at me (who knew?), but because I spent so long trying to get people to appreciate who I was, that I became something that I didn't like. I let people take advantage of me, because of my kind hearted nature.

It sounds like a broken record, but I am going to continue to be me, be nice and whatever happens happens.  I used to apologize when I crack somebody's aces in a game and it would piss them off.  So I don't do that anymore.  I'm not here to make anybody happy or sad, mad or angry.  I have to take care of me first.

 

I started to apologize to The CloserX5 yesterday when we talked on the phone. But it wasn't necessary.  He and I talked about how over a YEAR ago, he donked off a hand where he sucked off and I went off on him.  And how he respected my play, especially Wednesday night.  I've never been mad at anyone, confused maybe, but always I move on.

There are people who I've yelled and screamed telling them that I would never speak to them again.  That's a lie.  Because I forgive and I forget. 

People who have hurt me will never get the same trust, information or respect ever again, and sometimes false information to test to see if they are truly trustworthy.  But they NEVER get the same trust again. 

 

It looks like that the family will be coming up to see me soon since my Saturday night remotes at Lubbock Motor Speedway will be over soon.  We have to finish preparing the house for the tile man, paint the bathroom and the outside of the house.  But I plan to try and make one visit Pre-Okie to the lake with Gary and just hide.  I've lost my zen focus in the last couple of days.

 

I've realized that:

I'm never going to slam dunk a basketball in a game.

never going to get the time back that I have lost with my kids.

never going to have everyone like me nomatter how hard I try.

never going to have a day without radio stalkers as long as I am in the business.

the only way that I am ever going to get my book published is to ask for help.

I can never get back the time I wasted not taking chances. I'm going to take the chance of my life soon. It may succeed, it may fail, but the chance will be worth taking.

my maternal grandfather gave me a bald spot and that no hat will make me look better.

there are women that like you for who you are on the inside rather than the outside.

I can't always be the disciplinarian when sometimes people need a hug.

words hurt

people change

I've changed for in some cases better, and in some cases worse.

each day, I get closer to a bunch of friends that mean more to me, because they have become my extended family.

I'm still fat.

you hear that people changed and you try to believe when you know deep in your heart that there is no way that they could change.

that my word has been and will continue to be the greatest asset that I have.

and finally,

dreams are only dreams unless you have the guts, and heart to do them.

I give my heart out easily and I should look up and NOT DOWN for people to share my life with.

And that's why I am who I am.

I love Westerns, the old time, where you always knew who was the bad guy, for they always wore the Black Hat.

I wear the White hat, trying to help those who need help. But, there are times that I have to wear the Black Hat.

I may not be the perfect hero.  But I am a hero to the people that matter.